So here it is. I'm going to push myself to slowly, but surely, go a little further off the grid. My first step was deactivating my facebook account. I just did it without informing anyone; strangely, after doing it, the world kept right on spinning and I kept on going. I wonder how long it will take people to notice. I wonder if anyone will ask me about it. Will I miss it?
Maybe the most fascinating thing to me is that I don't really care what the answers to those questions are. Being that connected all the time goes against everything I hold dear, especially freedom. Freedom from feeling too obligated to stay in touch with people, some of whom I have never even met in person. My virtual friends. Man, I'm gonna miss the hell out of them.
Who/what I will NOT miss will be people I've found out way too much about on facebook. It's no way to keep in touch with people, being on such a public forum. I've actually started to be annoyed by people simply by the pages they like. Yet, I stay The removal you have from your actual friends is very unnerving to me. We're supposed to stay connected. To 400 people. All the time. It just made me feel like I had even less time to spend with the people I wanted to. There has GOT to be some way I can maintain friendships without having to log in first.
If all this goes accordingly, and I am able to discipline myself enough to break away from years of habitual mediocre social interactions, then I will come out on the other side with a renewed sense of self as well as some pretty rad adventures. I foresee many excursions with the boy, more books, more trips back in time to remember who I was and what I did before the internet took over my life.
This is my promise to myself, to live in the present. My brain was not meant to live in a world that moves so fast and worries too much about tomorrow.
